Elena chose this week’s word, and it is a good one for me at the moment. I’ve been feeling a bit out of kilter lately, as I’ve mentioned before. I’ve taken a bit of a step back from the internet – less time on forums, not much blogging – because there’s been so much stuff in my head that I haven’t really been able to take much in. We moved to Wales from central London 4 years ago, and since then, we’ve carved ourselves a little niche. House, garden, children, setting up new businesses, making friends. Everything ticking along.
And then, all at once, things started changing. We dug the garden up. We started reorganising the house. Our work was hit by the recession. I had a bit of a physical low period. And these changes seemed to trigger a phase of feeling off-balance. Mr S&S has been away working in the US for the last week and a half. We’ve never spent more than a week apart in our entire relationship, so it’s been strange not to have him here.
But now we’ve been apart a while, I’m entering a new phase of missing him. I’m not focusing on his absence, but planning for his presence. Thinking about the things I’m missing about him (and the things I can’t do without him!) and what we’ll do when he’s back. Having him gone has shown me the shape of the gap he leaves. And having the break in the routine, and some time alone, has made me re-evaluate the changes going on in our lives. So I think I’m slowly returning to equilibrium and finding my balanced centre.
I can’t find a suitable picture, so I’m sharing with you a photo I took during a walk a few weeks ago. The bluebells are almost all gone now, but they will come again.
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